We all have struggles. We all wish things were different sometimes.
The thing that makes us special is our passion to connect with others. The goal with all of my portraits is to somehow connect human beings.
Here's the problem though.
I use photography to disconnect myself from others sometimes. It's very easy to be the "the guy with the camera" and not have to talk to anyone. I often use photography to create a barrier between myself and social situations. As someone who continually struggles to keep my emotions "under control" this is difficult especially as a photographer.
This is my biggest struggle with photography.
The interesting thing is that since I have been shooting more portraits of people, my ability to connect to others has increased. I am able to talk to others with less anxiety. I can give an authentic smile to someone and I can leave a shoot with a sense of fullness having met my goal of not only connecting other humans, but also connecting myself.
LESSON LEARNED: Sometimes the thing we are scared of the most is actually the thing we need the most.